I went cross-eyed at age 2. I know why. There are things in this world I chose not to see and things in other worlds that were calling me. You can only get knocked in the head with anger so many times and still want to look in that persons face. There is a look in the eyes of some that accuses anyone who dares to look, of being the reason for their rage. I barely remember these younger years but for fear and discomfort. Sorry mom, this is the way the brain works. I did not look into my fathers' eyes. I was scared to. Both of my parents were abusive, both of them had also been hurt and abused as children. Same thing, later, with my stepdad. A gaze that incited only fear.
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Darren
5/19/2020 08:29:44 am
Wow, you have such a way with words and truth, thank you for your authenticity and sharing your growth and pain. Funny, I never noticed your eyes are crossed? Love yous!
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